Moving forward

So, a new month, and I hope a new beginning.

Well, sort of...

Because, last week I nearly broke my foot, so I have been home sick for the past week and a half.  But, He was so cute, because I told Him what happened, and he immediately got on a train and made the 2,5 hour journey to be with me. He stayed for 5 days, and we had a great time.

My ex would have not done that.

I was a bit hesitant, because he had a bad experience with his first time, and he just told me he wanted me, and I was like, are you sure? He was, and eventhough it didn't go quite as planned, I am willing to be patient, and work with him, so he can learn..

It's because he is so young... I don't want to damage him too much, or something.. I just want him to be happy, and in turn he will make me happy.

I hope he can come over soon, again... because I miss him, I miss his cuddles.. and I wanna teach him more :)

New beginnings, or so I hope

So, I met him yesterday.. He looked just like I expected, only better..He was so attentive, and careing. We kept our distance, tried to play it as friends, and I was asked once, but I said we where just friends. Just so to not start an all out war.. But, I gave in, and for now, he seems right, I hope he stays that way, he is so sweet, and innocent, I dare not to soil or damage him, but I might, and I don't wan't to...


It's been a few days now, since I first met him, and he still is so sweet, but he reminds me of my ex boyfriends.. I try to look at him different, I mean he is, but still... I think I still need some time, thankfully he's willing to wait, and just that makes him different.

I think I really have to get used to a guy like him...

but I am willing to give it a shot!

I mean, if a messed up girl like me can find a guy who loves her, after all this.., then one day, maybe.. I will have my dream..