Halfway through.. some upsides, some downsides

Ok so, yesterday I had school.. No sleep, well, hardly any.. overslept for school... Still not registered, so I still couldn't do anything. And today, I A) got my ass handed to me, because I did have a bit much too drink on Wednsday, B) because they felt that I was not in it as much as I said i was. So, I get more hours, so I can be controlled more, and also,I will probably get my ass handed to me a second time this week from my counsellors...

On a plus side, I have the weekend off, this week and next week. So next week I am going to meet up with some guildies, for the first time, and I feel really exicited about it, because in the past week, I have gotten to know them, and they have really been supportive and helpfull.

I still don't know how to deal with the break-up, because it  still hurts me to have been shoved aside so crudely..

So, here I am..... I don't really know how it got this way, but it did. A week ago, I was a almost happy, lucky, standing by my man, who was dealing with his father passing. His family loved me to bits, and I was even on the darned obituary.. One week later, I am in shambles, broken hearted, utter mess of a person, seriously considering hanging someone up in the highest tree I can find, and have the crows have their way with them.

How did it get this way, you might ask?

Oh well, it's pretty easy, actually.. his mother did not approve, and told him to choose. Between her and me, and he chose, obviously, her. So, for the umpthieth time, I have gotten a broken heart, and my trust is been crushed to a teeny tiny grain of sand.

I finally thought I had a good person, and that my life was going somewhere, but I guess, not. So i am, once again, left to pick up the pieces of my broken heart, and life, and just plough on through, and see where it goes. I am betting nowhere, though..